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Name: Alyssa
Birthday: 3/18/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: DANCING!. . . friends. . . fun. . . learning new things. . . and don't forget the dancing. . .
Expertise: . . .dancing. . . math. . .
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AIM:  RokOutWitBubbles
Member Since:
5/20/2005
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| So I did finally stop running-ish. . . I tried to settle into the apartment, a new store and a new boyfriend. . . The apartment was more levels of hell than I can even put into words. . . Things finally got "worked" out. . . but I still am just unhappy there. I'm so uncomfortable. This lack of comfort has me moving back into my parents pretty soon. So although I'm in a way giving up a good deal of freedom, I feel it is something that must happen. My "new" store. . . sounds so silly. I've now been at that store longer than I was at my first store. I've actually found a lot of friends and people that I can really rely on. I didn't expect this to happen at all. But I'm really thankful for it. However, seeing as the job is in Trampa, and I'm moving back to my parents. . . I don't know how well all of that is going to work out. I don't want to leave the store, but I also don't want to drive to tampa 7 days a week. The boyfriend. . . we broke up today. lol. It was really great for a while. . . and he was there when I really needed an escape. . . But it's kind of funny that once my apartment situation finally settled down, that him and I drifted so much. However, everything happens for a reason. . . So, here's my life. . . lol. Although I'm taking a step back from things, I'm not at all regressing. I'm going to be the president of Engineers Without Borders in the fall. . . and I'm going to start getting into my engineering classes. . . Life is fo cereal beginning. | | |
| Settling down is much of what i've been doing. . . this move to tampa is a huge step towards even more independence. . . I feel soo badly that i walked away from people that care so much about me, but it has allowed me to grow. . . growth i could've never accomplished relying on you so much. . . I feel like someone has taken my life and turned it upside down! lol. I started at my new store tonight. . . I'm sure i'll grow to like it, but it can't even come close to replacing my old starbucks. I love that store and i love those people. . . leaving there was so sad. . . :-/ But, another step i must take in moving forth with my life. Life isn't always about being comfortable. . . I've met the room mates, and i think this is going to be a good year. Everyone seems to be pretty serious about school, which is wayyy good! And!! I met my neighbors. . . this is what i thought st pete was going to be like. . . but it's crazy how many people i went to high school with that now suddenly live in the same apartment as me, and across the hall. . . but it's aweomse, because i never got to know them in high school, and so far they seem pretty awesome. : ) The start of a new school year. . . the start of a new city. . . a little overwhelming, but much to be embraced. My room is very set up-ish!! lol. It's so comfortable and even though this apartment is the most alone and seperate i've ever lived, i feel happy. It's way too tragically late. . . i have barely slept in the past week!! So, lyrics i can't let go and sleep! Blink 182 --- Go Are we all victims of opportunity
Locked outside the door back in '83
I heard the angry voice of the man inside
And saw the look of fear in my mother's eyes
GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Mom get in the car and let's drive away
She said I'm sorry Mark but there's nowhere to stay
Gave up all her hope and went back inside
Hid her broken heart and let the engine die
GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Why do evil men get away with it
Can't you see that I'm in a world of shit
Turn your back on hope and go back inside
Stop my bleeding heart and let the engine die
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
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| I haven't written in a little while-ish. I've had sooo many people come back into my life. . . a little overwhelming, a lot amazing. I was so angry for so long. . . I'm so thankful i learned to let go. I shall continue with my yous, they understand who they are. Thank you sooo much for texting me. . . getting to see him was a really big deal to me. We will certainly have lunch soon. I do hope things are well. You! I can't believe i got to see you. . . i'm really glad i did. . . the company was very nice. Not much left to say really. . . I'm really happy right now. . . although there are some things that make my mind rattle, most things seem to be going well. . . Ok i'm rambling and incredibly tired. I leave you with a song i really really like. Peace. We The Kings
Check Yes Juliet lyricsCheck yes Juliet
Are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won't go until you come outside.
Check yes Juliet
Kill the limbo
I'll keep tossing rocks at your window
There's no turning back for us tonight.
Lace up your shoes
Eh Oh Eh Ohhh
Here's how we do:
Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back.
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance.
Don't sell your heart.
Don't say we're not meant to be.
Run, baby, run.
Forever we'll be
You and me.
Check yes Juliet
I'll be waiting
Wishing, wanting
Yours for the taking.
Just sneak out
And don't tell a soul goodbye.
Check yes Juliet
Here's the countdown
3... 2... 1... now fall in my arms
Now they can change the locks
Don't let them change your mind
Lace up your shoes
Eh Oh Eh Ohhh
Here's how we do
Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be
You and me
We're flying through the night
We're flying through the night
Way up high,
The view from here is getting better with
You by my side
Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be...
Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be
You and me
You and me
You and me | | |
| I need to step away from myspace and just let everything out. . . Things have entirely turned around. . . They were so negative for so long. . . and there was so much stress. . . but life has calmed down and i've stepped back. . . and everything seems to be working for now. . . Timing is soo awkward. . . it's unnerving. . . I totally realized how sad it is that you're alone, there's no way you're not alone. . . then i come on here today and see the post. . . I know a lot of the issues are surrounding me. . . but look at the factor that changed it all. How you could expect him to be so different than all the bullshit i went through, i don't see. . . Why you still went after him, as much as you hated him. . . ok maybe not hate but dislike. . . you could not stand that kid. . . and now you're giving him you're heart? But hey, entirely your decisions. . . I have no right to even impose judgement. I'm sorry I walked away. . . but sometimes you have to hold your own, and that means letting others down. Then you. . . You've been in my dreams lately. . . and my thoughts. And there is no fear. . . Just confusion. . . Once again, I come onto here and see the post that you're having weird dreams. . . The synchronicities are overwhelming. There is of course you. . . I've come to conclude that you were my ultimate down fall. . . As much as I've let go and as much as I don't think about you. . . I still miss you and I still want to be with you. . . After my degree I'd be willing to walk away from life and be with you. . . Maybe one day I won't even miss you </3 | | |
| of life is overwhelming. . . lol. People's lifes are progressing, some for the better and some for the worse. . . however i have no room to judge. . . as long as people are happy with the decisions they make. . . This is the first time in a while that i've been so happy. . . it's really early on and i don't want to jump in over my head. . . but it feels so right. . . <3 Hope everyone's well. . . | | |
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